Okay, so I haven't blogged in awhile, I have been meaning to ever since I got internet again :).

So, here I am.

Anywho, today I was watching a video, "Structural Resonance -Denise: Desteni", and as I was half-way through the 2nd viewing, (due to the major similarities within my past relationships, and the extremely honest, truthful information and support provided), when I heard the doorbell ring!

One of my 'friends' was at the door asking for my Dad.  I could tell he had weed on him from  the way he smelled, so I gave him a 'look', opened the door wide, and let him wake my Dad up for himself. I personally don't support drug-abuse.

Anyways, as Gage was leaving... one of my neighbors across from me (I live in apts.), was down the stairs with his new puppy, Bud (short for Buddy). Buddy was being rather non-conformative, like usual, and drinking out of puddles. ^-^.. 

Moments pass, and I'm informed that my neighbors have yet another puppy, Bella. So, I go inside the neighbors apt. to see for myself.

Denise asks me to watch one of the puppies while they go out of town for the weekend. I, of course, would love to, but I'm not sure if my Dad will approve. So, I will just have to wait and see if I'll be a puppy-sitter this weekend, or not. 

Inside, Denise starts asking me more questions. When she starts asking about my schooling, I am pretty much silent. My mind is popping-up answers that are obviously irrelevant, therefore I stay quiet, once in awhile I will blurt something out to shut her up. I feel uneasy, and it seems like Denise is really not understanding why I am so quiet, but that's alright.

Russ on the other hand is answering questions for me, having a 'good ol' time', smiling, and being 'weird' in a refreshing way.

I am practicing being with and as my surroundings, which includes the people around me, 'cause we're all one in the same. 

They are really starting to remind me of when I was in a relationship with my ex, Taylor. Russ being friendly, loving, playful, down-to-earth, goofy, ...and Denise, acting manipulative, bitchy, needy, and sarcastic, with a strong attitude. Just like Taylor and I were together! 

We looked at paint colors in their living room for their new place, talked about the dogs whereabouts and behaviors, talked about them moving, and how I can access their internet after they do, and Denise asked me what my passion in life was (which I had no reply to,other then a very slow-responsed, desperate, "I don't know.")

Russ talked about work at my old High School cleaning classrooms, and Denise discusses her line of work (cooking for people's parties, etc.), Russ coming home late from shopping at Wal-Mart, the town in which we live, why I don't have a boyfriend, how beautiful I am (complete and utter bullshit), and the dogs (calling Bella homely and ugly ['Beauty' can't exist without 'Ugly' folks!]), and then, the grand finale, blaming Russ for not taking care of getting her a dresser from our downstairs neighbor Phillis (Dove) in time. 

So, as Russ goes out to talk to Dove standing downstairs for back-up, I casually walk back into my apartment. Home sweet home. Anyways, I just thought it was funny how I totally forgot my neighbors name was Denise while watching this video and then I run into her. I was able to witness for myself why it was Taylor and I split, first hand, in 3D, and I definitely had some realizations thrown in my direction.

P.S. It's Thursday and I'm editing posts, I would like to add I went downstairs the same day when Denise spoke to me like I was inferior to her, asking if I had asked my Dad about watching the dogs for 2 days, and he was standing right there! Why would someone be such a bitch after I offered to do them a favor, & when my Dad was right in front of her!? D:< :P :]

No sign of puppies either. Oh well, less hair on my plate.